28 March 2012

A Weighty Rant

Time for a bit of honesty, full disclosure and the like.

I'm fat.  Or, at the very least on the overweight side of life.  Hell, according to my BMI, I am obese.  (I think BMI is bullshit anyway.)  I've been trying for a long time to get my weight down.  And I have.  I topped out at about 275 (124.7 kg) in 2006.  As of Monday (26 MAR 12) I was 244.8 (111 kg)  So, slow weight loss for sure.  And I've gone up and down since.  I've been less in the past six years, but its never easy.

Now, in the past year I've really started trying to make a sustained change.  And I've been succeeding.  A year ago I made the goal to run in a road race.  And I completed that goal!  Last September I ran in a relay triathlon with my dad.  And in October, I started training in America's Best Defense (a combo of Muay Thai and Krav Maga).  Recently, I was invited to move up to their Black Belt Training program.  So, I'm feeling pretty good about how I am doing regarding my weight loss and fitness.

Now to re-wind a bit.

A couple of months ago one of my cube mates was going to order her self something from the local Chinese take out.  Looking at me (and another larger co-worker) she said "Hey, you should know what item x is."  Really?  I know that she did not mean it in the way it came out, but there were several other ways to ask this question.  But you ask the fat kid about a take out menu item.  How might that make him feel?  I shrugged it off as a joke and moved on.

Since then, her and the co-worker that invited my ire today, would talk about diets, and working out etc, etc.  Neither of them really need to do either.  But what galled me is when they would complain how they are fat.  Neither of them are no where near fat.

Really?  Again, you feel the need to say this in front of the kid whose been trying for years to loose weight?  Typically, my skin is much thicker than this, but today it just grated on me.  And in talking to various internet friends it was pointed out that people like my co-workers are just looking for attention.  I know this.  Which is why I did not jump down their throats.

So, rant over.  As I always do, I will keep my headphones on and ignore the world around me when I am at work.  I know I am doing well, my family knows I'm doing well and my friends know I am doing well.  And those are the only people that matter.


  1. Good for you Matt! I'll share a secret with you - my weight on my female frame was up to a whopping 240. I had abuse happen to me at 16 and continuously packed on the pounds until I basically no longer recognized myself. I am slowly taking it off as well, and you and I know I've never been 'thin.' So far I'm down to 203.6, looking forward to finally being under 200...haven't been since I was 20! I know I can get this monkey off my back, and so can you!!! :) Fuck the coworkers who want attention. I had one, whom I actually told I was on a diabetic diet, offer my a 700 cal chocolate muffin four out of five days in one week until I finally snapped on her! People not only want attention, but they also secretly want to sabatoge. Best advice I can offer is, you know you are kicking ass and don't listen to anyone who says otherwise!!! :)

    1. Awesome! Good for you! And, thanks! Together we can do this. I can't remember the last time I was under 200. I'm looking to get to around 200 as my goal. If I can get under, great. Right now though I'm looking for 200.

  2. Well done you, I to have battled the weight for years, topped out at 301lbs and been as low as 225lbs, sitting about 250 at the moment and struggling to make any move.

    Co-workers are thinking about themselves, they do not think how the discussion could make you or other people feel. I also always get offered sweet things all the times at work people just do not think about you.

    Keep up the good work you will reach your target with the sort of determination you are showing.

    1. Thanks, and well done to you as well!